Boston Marathon

Today, a tragedy took place. As runners were reaching the finish line at the Boston Marathon today, a bomb went off in a near by building. Another followed immediately after, and two are reported dead. With the amount of technology available to people, media response was immediate. There are videos all over YouTube from peoples cellphones of the actual explosion. It's terrifying to watch, because you know what's going to happen, but you can't help anyone. There's no way to warn them, to tell them to run and get out of there, because it is a video, and it was recorded in the past. But it's heartbreaking to watch, and you can hear the screams of people who as so scared and hurt that that's the only reaction they have. And my immediate thought was: I feel helpless.

I feel. What I'm feeling. That was my first response. I know the sentiment is well meant, but why would I think of myself first. There are hundreds of people who could have been injured. I should be worrying about them. I am, actually. But I am disappointed in myself for thinking of me first.

With the ability to record videos on your phone, there is so much of this horrible event documented. It puts you right into the middle of it, which is scary.

My thoughts and prayers go out to those who were affected in any way by this. I wish there was more I could give than that.