What is going on?

Today, I am spent.

My financial situation is crumbling. There wasn't much of a situation to begin with.

I am now applying for multiple jobs, which is stressful and terrifying.

I have Opera workshop rehearsal everyday for at least 4 hours from now until next Sunday.

My choir is singing in Niverville on Sunday, which involves boarding a bus at 8:30 am, and arriving back at school at 1:30 pm, when I will then head to Opera workshop, which runs until 5:00 pm.

I spent three panicked days trying to reschedule my recital, which was supposed to be at the end of January. I have no time to practice.

My accompanist is not the most competent, and we have to practice. A lot. And she never has time.

I can't pay for the rest of school at the moment. That's a problem. My student loan was less than I anticipated.

I had to talk to my faculty adviser about no longer studying music. I then had to tell my parents, which I was more scared about than I needed to be.

I had a voice lesson and was terrified the entire time. I have yet to tell my teacher that I am not going to continue on in the field of music in the way that I had first intended.

I am constantly worried about letting people down, I dislike making big decisions, and everything feels all out of balance.

I have a 3 page paper due on the day of the first opera performance. It's on a movie with Marilyn Monroe. I have to watch it this weekend.

We spent  45 minutes talking about Ronald Reagan and the New Deal in class yesterday. I have never felt less informed about the world than in those minutes.

I have choir for and hour and forty five minutes today. That's a long time, in choir minutes.

I miss how simple Altona feels. I hate that I miss it.

I am drained, and the semester has barely started.




This has been a stress filled post, brought to you by me.
Just to let you know, I love my classes, and I have great friends and family.